Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for. We are the change that we seek.
There are some days when my soul cries for some sensual 90’s music. I’m talking about the music that today’s artists sample because it is so authentic and smooth — I’m talking about the perfect mesh of Hip Hop and RnB.
iTunes has the perfect Mary J. Blige playlist! It is a didactic mix of breakup mix and motivational jams! Feel free to bump it in your car, while your curry is simmering on the stove or sing it at the top of your lungs in the shower. It’s your favorite Mary songs that will have you in and out of your feelings!
Just see for yourself!
Let me keep it real with y’all —
If you know me [like really know me], you know that I am a writer. I write for solace, for love, for healing, for fun, for God, for friends, for everything. But to be perfectly honest, I don’t remember the last time I wrote anything.
I made it my duty to buy a new journal in every country (7) I’ve visited, but converted those jounrals into planners.
I guess that was me trying to gain some kind of control over my confusion.
I’ve battled the nuances of happiness and feeling accomplished, simultaneously realizing that I cannot let my success stress me bare. You’re not supposed to kill yourself while you’re attempting to build yourself.
I didn’t realize that my disengagement with writing was a sign that something was and is wrong. I thought I was growing out of an old hobby on this “new” journey.
Note to self: Bull Sh*t! You were just trying to hide your feelings from yourself, but you ain’t low, Na!
I almost thought about giving up on the blog because of my inconsistency, but that would just be me giving up on me! But I decided against it – I matter to me and my voice and presence is necessary.
trying to make making time for myself— diving into what makes me happy, and still on the grind without putting myself through the grinder. Finding time and space for me is so important!
Counting my wins. Glorifying my losses. Loving God always. And always leaving haters on read.
Note to self: I love you, Na! Remember that!
I have set the same goal for the past 3 years. Even young Na was striving to be a better black girl.
Side Note: I am a woman now.
I am now discovering the people, places, and things that make me happy. I want to hold on to these things as well uncover others outlets for my happiness.
I used to be obsessed with losing weight. I have handed in my self hate towel and am now learning to become obsessed with my healthier self. I’ll let you know how it works out.
Accept No Apologies, Apologize Less
I will no longer forgive others for hurting or disappointing me. Everything is done with intention and thus I am holding everyone accountable for their actions. I will not be sorry. I will be learning and messing up and discovering ways to improve so I never need to apologize.
Pray and Give Thanks
Becoming closer to God is always the goal, one that you must work endlessly towards. I pray a lot and I always say thank you but I want to be better at it. I want to be able to say grace when my friends mother puts me on the spot.
“It’s a terrible thing, I think, in life to wait until you‘re ready. I have this feeling now that actually no one is ever ready to do anything. I have this feeling now that actually no one is ever ready to do anything. There is almost no such thing as ready. There is only now. And youmay as well do it now. Generally speaking, now is as a good a time as any.” – Hugh Laurie.
2016 is the year of the better self!